Category 5

 

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If a prophet had asked…

Oh, Lord!  How much longer?  How much longer must we endure these horrors at the hands of The Nazis?  Your people are suffering atrocities at Auschwitz untold in ages past!

These Nazis pluck babies from their mothers; these infants are tossed up in the air and fired upon as if they were target practice!  Their blood splatters over Your people, the prisoners!

Last night, my mother lay down beside me, but she suffered from a fever, a sickness brought on by malnutrition.  They refused to treat her; they were unwilling to feed her.

Last night, she was alive!  While I was sleeping she passed away, and the rats ate her body while it was still warm!  There is nothing left of my mother but a bloody skeleton!

My father died at Dachau.  For The Nazis came for him in the middle of the night, stripped his clothes in the dead of winter, and bound his hands and feet to the ground!

And I listened as every hour on the hour a Nazi would throw cold water over my father in the middle of that long winter night! My father died screaming, praying for deliverance!

He passed away as a guinea pig because of those Nazis!  My father died of hypothermia just so they could see the best way to warm up their pilots who eject over the ocean!

A man of medicine ordered this, but even their doctors are killers!  How long, O Lord, must we endure this atrocity?  How soon until we are delivered from the gas chambers?

Shall Your people simply march to their deaths?  Will You not, O Lord, remember the promise You made to our ancestors, the covenant You established with Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob?

For if we are Your people, then surely this abomination shall not continue!  I may stand in the line to the gas chamber, but still I will await deliverance from The God of My Fathers!

…then would The Almighty have answered?

Behold!  For I have heard your suffering, and as surely as I live, this abomination shall not continue; this atrocity shall end!  Stop walking!  Stand in your faith that I AM faithful!

Listen to me very carefully; do not lose sight of My words.  For the answers you seek can be found in the pages of long ago, in The Books written in days of old.

Those who say I have been silent throughout the ages, do not know Me.  They have forsaken My commands to fill their own desires; because things did not go their way,

They have turned away from their faith, but the strength of My people shall stand as a testimony against their weakness.  There is no love between neighbors.

For the peoples of this world have a knowledge they were never meant to have–the knowledge of good and evil–therefore, they will never master it.  Instead, it has mastered them.

Children are violated, mothers are scorned, the rich exploit the poor, governments are corrupt, and rape and murder are everywhere.  But love does no harm,

And perfect love drives out fear.  This I have told you ages ago, but you did not listen.  Therefore, I shall send a reckoning so great it will purge the hypocrisy from the people’s hearts.

Does the lion with a full stomach hunt the lamb?  Does a woman give birth without pain?  Does a plant grow from a living seed?  No, for the seed must die that the plant may live.

How shall a man ever know courage without facing tragedy?  How can a woman know sacrifice without her children’s needs?  And how shall the peoples of the earth ever know

Just how much they need Me unless I let them taste their own degradation?  For the lion with the full stomach ignores the lamb until hunger aches and drives it to hunt again.

So shall it be with the people I have created, those who have turned their back on Me from the beginning.  For since so many have chosen to ignore Me,

Then I will show them what happens when they ignore My command to love their neighbors; and from that reckoning there shall come an awakening–as it was in days of old.

For I am going to do something you will not believe even when you see it with your own eyes:  I am raising up The Soviets to capture your captors, and The Americans to liberate My people.

The wounded bear is on the prowl, and it shall devour your enemies.  Its strength cannot be counted, its muscles are beyond measure, and its teeth shall chew on your captors–

For the most dangerous animal is a bleeding mother protecting her cubs.  And after the hammer pounds the swastika, the sickle shall shall cut it down once and for all.

Gaze upon The Soviets and see their cruelty, for if they kill their own soldiers who retreat in battle then they shall surely show no mercy to those who have shown you no mercy.

Your enemies will live in shame for an entire generation, that once proud nation shall know humility while held in the fangs of the bear, crushed under the sharpest claws.

And while the bear shall rule your captors from the east, the eagle shall soar in the west.  A nation united shall also divide your enemies, for I am raising up The Americans.

Even now, they stand in breadlines awaiting their ration of food; their lives are miserable because a great depression has swept over their lands, and their ground is but a dustbowl.

But as surely as I made a promise to your ancestor, Abraham, I will raise up The Americans from the throes of this great depression, and they shall release you from your captors.

Today the skies billow with smoke as My enemies attempt to extinguish My people, but tomorrow The Americans will attack in fire, for I shall rouse a sleeping giant;

And you shall see the dogfights in the skies and hear the thunder of their weapons.  For the factories that make cosmetic casings today shall turn out arrows of lightning tomorrow;

Just one of their weapons will strike down many, but they shall beat their swords into plowshares, for that which fuels their explosives today shall fertilize their crops tomorrow.

And look!  Far to the east!  See The Empire of The Sun rising in the peaceful sea, but My Hand is against them, My Arm stretched out before them.

For their loyalty is voracious; they will not stop unless I turn them back.  And turn them back I shall; for even now, their kamakazies are proud to mark their deaths.

See their soldiers as they march in Myanmar, their well-trained warriors who put their trust in their own weapons shall fall before Me on the island of Ramree.

As they have feasted on their enemies, so shall the saltwater crocodiles feast upon them; for 10,000 of their troops will march through the dark swamps, but only 20 will see daylight.

Darkness is falling upon The Empire of The Sun, and they shall see such calamity upon their lands as was never seen before and shall never be seen in times to come.

For when the smallest particle is split, the greatest destruction comes; a sheet of sun shall conquer The Empire of The Sun, a devastation so great it shall be seen from the heavens.

So terrible will be this fire from the sky and this fallout from the heavens that in times to come even the American victors will speak of it as an unprecedented evil.

But after these things have taken place, after I have raised you up, you must teach your children to remember the atrocities you have endured that this shall happen Never Again!

And if a prophet had also asked…

O Lord, how can The Americans possibly liberate Your people?  That nation has been plagued by prejudice and has reeked of racism since its conception!

How can we be delivered by the arms of America when their own people cannot sit at a lunch counter and eat?  For they have passed laws that are detestable in Your sight!

Their people delight in lynchings and rejoice in killings!  They speak of freedom and sing of liberty, but their own people are segregated and degraded daily!

Since The Empire of The Sun has attacked them, their own citizens have been sent to camps, prisoners in their own nation–even though they have foresworn their native lands.

And if The Americans are that brutal toward their own people, how can we possibly believe that they shall liberate us from The Nazis?  Shall we live like the sons of slaves?

O Lord, can You not see fires blazing America?  Shall Your people live in fear from the intimidation of the white men in white sheets?  The killers who dress up in cone-heads?

Like the snake in The Garden, those religious leaders have twisted Your words to serve their own evil purposes; they mock those living in poverty, and murder men

And women, while those made in Your Image are forced to live in segregation and disgrace!  Shall we see the light of day from the atrocities at Auschwitz only to be delivered

Into the hands of men whose evil rivals that of our captors?  For how long, O Lord, shall it be before such men are elected to power in America?  How soon until their hatred

Consumes that nation because of those who spew such venom?  For there are no noble kings in that land, no good shepherds to hunt down the wolves arising in America.

…then would The Almighty have also answered?

Behold!  Do not despair, My people!  For it is I who causes the sun to rise on the evil and the good, Me who sends the rains down upon the righteous and the unrighteous.

Remember, too, the day the sun stood still over Gibeon, and the moon did not move over The Valley of Aijalon.  For there has never been a day like it before or since,

When the hailstones fell upon the frightened people who were fleeing on the road from Beth Horon to Azakah, a single nation struck down many, so shall it be again.

And even those who shall reap the spoils of the victory I am granting, will speak of the unspeakable, and will utter words against the power I am giving them, in times to come.

But I am not yet finished with America!  For when that nation was young, I sent My Sojourner of Truth to warn them of the weasel within their lands, the snake striking from the weeds.

But they did not heed My messenger.  I spoke to her, and she spoke for Me, but those with ears could not hear, those with eyes could not see, and the wise could not comprehend.

I commanded her to travel up and down the land, to show these people their sins and to be a sign to them, and though she could not read or write

I chose her, a former slave whose family was sold, to speak against a nation that promised justice but legalized brutal slavery and denied rights to her citizens.

Yet, they delight in telling their children of the ten plagues I sent against Pharaoh and Egypt, but their eyes are closed; they do not realize that with each one I showed

My blatant contempt for brutal slavery.  And though Sojourner Truth was thought to be a fool in eyes of the slave-holders, the brutality of America shall soon be seen all around the world.

Have I not chosen the foolish in the eyes of this world to shame the wise of this world?  Is there any nation, any race, any people who shall not answer to Me?

Listen closely!  For I am not yet finished with America!  In times to come–and this shall happen quickly–another woman shall rise by staying in her seat.

A single woman sitting on a bus shall spark a revolution among her people.  I made her feet; they are not tired.  I created her heart, and it is tired–of giving in to segregation.

And from that spark, there shall come a prophet, a man I have chosen to end segregation in America.  In a land without royalty, he shall be called King, and I will grant him The Crown of Life.

Many attempts will be made upon his life, to take him from his people, but he will not pass until he has done what I have appointed him to do, and though a knife will penetrate his chest–

Fractions from his heart–he shall not even sneeze.  Though today his enemies claim victory in their lynchings, tomorrow all children shall sit together at the same schools–in peace.

His voice shall echo through the lands like the thunder roars, his words shall strike like lightning at the hearts of the hypocrites who twist my words like the snake in The Garden.

Like a Category 5 hurricane, his words shall purge a land filled with the degrading segregation of the south, and he shall speak against the poverty of the northern land.

He will fight without raising a fist, and battle for the oppressed while never drawing a weapon.  Though his enemies strike him, he will not strike back, but he shall stand on faith,

And the whole world will know that I am with him.  For he shall have a dream, a great vision of unity among the divided peoples of his country, and righteousness shall flow like

A mighty stream.  For this dream will shatter the barriers of segregation and break the chains of discrimination, and freedom shall ring at last from the land called America.

He shall humble the sole power to emerge from the conflict that now threatens My people, and a risen giant shall know humility like the shepherd David brought down the warrior Goliath.

For this power I am granting The Americans is far, far too great for any one nation to hold.  So after four years, I shall test them for forty years; allies today shall be enemies tomorrow.

For forty years, they shall live in fear of the sheets of sun; their children shall duck under their desks, their parents shall build bomb shelters in their backyards–so great is their fear!

But when these two great powers of the west and of the east overstep their bounds, I shall turn My hand against them.  In the jungles of Vietnam, the soaring eagle

Shall be brought low, and in the deserts of Afghanistan the proud bear shall be humbled.  Though they aim their arrows of lightning and launch their fires from the skies,

The peoples of the jungles and of the deserts shall be victorious against them.  Do I, the Lord, show favoritism?  Has everyone forgotten what the commander of My army told

Joshua before the fall of Jericho?  For when Joshua asked, “Are you for us or for our enemies?” My messenger said, “Neither.”  Remember, too, that I had brought My people out of Egypt,

From a land where they were slaves, and for forty years I fed them.  Still, My answer was, “Neither.”  Therefore, let it be known that I, the Lord, do not show favoritism.

And let all the nations know:  it is not the weapons that win the war, nor the soldiers who achieve victories. but only I, the Lord, grant victory or defeat–as I decree.

And when these powers do, indeed, overstep their bounds, then they, too, shall fall before Me; for those who live by the sword shall die by the sword at the hands of those who are left;

For whoever sheds the blood of man by man shall his blood be shed, and those that plunder many nations shall themselves be plundered by the peoples who are left.

So shall it be for the great powers of the west and the east, if they should use their power for their own greed instead of helping their neighbors across the seas.

I have heard the suffering of my people, and as surely as I live, this abomination shall not continue; this atrocity shall end!  Stop walking!  Stand in your faith that I AM faithful!

For I will give you back the land I promised to your fathers, the ground I declared would be your mothers.  As it was in days of old, so shall it be again.  For as surely as I live

I will restore My people to the land of their ancestors.  Many shall rise against you, but all of them shall fail, and you will know that I am with you.  In times to come,

For six days you shall battle against your enemies, but on the seventh day, you shall rest; and all the peoples of the earth shall know that I am with you once more.

But look closely at that wall in the east!  Gaze upon the words and be warned!  For it says, “Jews go back to Israel!”  And you shall return, as I decree, but the hatred of My people

Shall continue.  For I tell you the truth, within a generation that same wall will be covered in new words but tell of old hatred.  For it shall say, “Jews get out of Palestine!”

Therefore, be vigilant!  Keep my commands and honor my decress.  For you have spent thousands of years wandering among the nations, you were like a child without a father.

Because you were oppressed by those in the lands you lived, you must not oppress those who live in your lands.  You cried out to me because you were oppressed by your captors;

Therefore, you must not become captors.  For after I have raised you up, you must teach your children to remember the atrocities you have endured that this shall happen Never Again!

Though today you long for death to end your suffering at the hands of The Nazis, tomorrow you shall again feast in the land of your ancestors–as surely as I, The Lord God Almighty, live.

 

 

A Few Notes From The Author…

-All comments are moderated.

-Inappropriate comments will be deleted.

-Comments that stray from the subject will be deleted.

-Dr. Sigmund Rascher conducted hypothermia experiments at Dachau.

-Ammonium nitrate is a key ingredient in explosives.  After the war it was used to fertilize crops in The United States.

-Certain graphic details were taken from In The Hell Of Auschwitz by Judith Sternberg Newman.  I actually have an autographed copy and, on the inside cover, she wrote, “Free Again.”

-The Soviet Union tested its first nuclear bomb four years after the attacks on Hiroshima and Nagasaki.  The Berlin Wall, the most distinct symbol of The Cold War, fell 40 years later.

-Was it right for The United States to drop atomic bombs on Hiroshima and Nagasaki?  The people of the time certainly thought so, but, for the sake of the future, I hope nobody else ever sees it that way.

-The writing on the “wall in the east” is taken from Amos Oz’s How to Cure a Fanatic.  Oz also makes a very significant distinction between war and aggression when he brings up a very valid point about the unfortunate necessity of war:  ”If everyone but The Nazis had believed in war in 1939 then Hitler would have been lord of the universe by now…War can be the answer, but aggression is the problem.” 

-According to The 2007 Guinness Book of Records, the “Most Fatalities In A Crocodile Attack” took place on February 19th 1945 when “a Japanese Army unit was forced to cross 10 miles of mangrove swamps on the Burmese (now Myanmar) island of Ramree.  The swamps are home to many saltwater crocodiles, which can grow up to 15 feet long.  By the morning, of the 10,000 soldiers that had entered the swamp, only 20 had survived” (page 165).

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  1. On April 21, 2008 at 10:22 am Michelle Said:

    Amazing…it’s almost too much to take in…I’ll be reading it again and again.

    O Lord GOD, listen to Your children praying…show us the way You would have us go…lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil…

  2. On April 21, 2008 at 10:48 am Brad Said:

    NorEaster,

    Thanks for the email notifcation. I’m glad I got a chance to read this.

    First of all, incredibly well-written. You have a real gift in writing, and it was eerie how rhythmically similar it was to OT Prophetic writing. Absolutely beautiful, and very well done.

    In Re: to violence/aggression/military action, I think you and I very much agree (Romans 13?). There are many scriptural references that support a divine involvement in international politics and affairs, not to mention war. I’m a Chaplain Candidate (Chap-in-training) with the MO National Guard. Before that, I was a Military Police Platoon Leader. This tension of individual responsibility to “love your neighbor” with governmental obligation is only resolvable with a Romans 13 (and OT) understanding.

    Where this tension is greatest for me is that we Chaplains are not allowed to bear arms. This is not a Geneva requirement, but something the U.S. alone does above and beyond. The justification is that, the same hands that heal must not also shed blood. In theory, I appreciate the sentiment. But practically, I am told not to pick up a weapon even in defense of fallen soldiers, much less myself. This strikes me as antithetical, and is why I was probably so sensitive to our self-defense debate on our blog. But that’s a whole other discussion…

    I was glad to see you phrase the questions/headings “would God respond in this way?” I get nervous when people make extra-biblical claims of God’s involvement or judgment on people and nations. I heard a pastor say that Katrina was a judgment of the sin in the 9th Ward, and I about choked the life out of him. IT is entirely possible that was the case, but to say with any certainty that we know the mind of God in that way is… it’s absolutely horrible and wrong. So I was glad to see you phrase this as a possibility and not a certainty.

    Thanks! This was great stuff.

  3. On April 21, 2008 at 10:55 am TheNorEaster Said:

    Michelle:

    “How do you think I feel?

    I read it and I can hardly believe I’m the one who wrote it. I can’t even begin to explain the fear and the joy.

    At least I framed it around a rhetorical question, which, I hope, leaves the answer to the reader. But I’m glad you’ll be reading it again and again. I hope a lot of people do simply because there is so much in there.

    Now if you’ll excuse me, I think I need some air…

  4. On April 21, 2008 at 10:59 am TheNorEaster Said:

    Brad:

    I specifically framed it that way because of I know that it would be arrogant of me to presume I know so much about The Almighty, and I, too, have heard the same claims made about Katrina. I see possibilities, not certainties. Probabilities, not absolutes.

    And, at the same time, there is a whole to consider.

    Regarding your struggle concerning the rules of weapons for Chaplains…it actually reminds me of something my grandmother had said about my grandfather’s experiences after the war. He fought in The Pacific Theater, but, when he came back, my grandmother said that he “had a tough time from killing all them people.” And yet, that war is considered by many to be a “just” war. But still he struggled with the things he had done. And I know of several other combat veterans who have struggled. So, as difficult as it may be for you to accept that you, as a Chaplain, must not bear arms, maybe–just maybe–when get a few more years experience as a Chaplain, you’ll be grateful that you were spared that burden.

    Just a thought, of course.

  5. On April 21, 2008 at 1:23 pm Brad Said:

    “Just a thought, of course.”

    An excellent thought as well. I do not want to bear arms to fight, but to defend. In my mind, a burden potentially heavier than what your grandfather dealt with would be not being able to save someone else’s life because of the prohibition to carry arms. Either way, by means of action or inaction, a life could be lost. My preference, and one that resolves better with my understanding of Christian responsibility, is to bear arms in case that situation should arise, but pray heavily that it does not.

    “And, at the same time, there is a whole to consider.:

    Very true. Ours is an infinitely short-sighted and limited perspective by comparison.

  6. On April 21, 2008 at 2:01 pm TheNorEaster Said:

    Brad:

    I just got back from taking a walk to get some air, but I realized how grateful I am that a Chap-in-training like yourself sees “possibilities, not certainties.” I am very much aware at how easily someone could twist my words–”like the snake in The Garden”–to further their own agenda. I wrestled with that while I was writing Category 5 and have tried to find a way to avoid sounding like that (hence the questions).

    As a Chap-in-training, I think it is good that you stuggle with your assigned prohibition to carry arms. That, I think, is a very important part of your training. I do have hope that you will conclude to follow the regulations despite your own desire to defend. Those regulations are there for a reason and, like Paul said, “authorities do not bear the sword in vain.” (A bad analogy in this case, but I’m confident you get the idea.)

    When my grandfather was in the war, he once saw 2,000 men disappear in a blinding flash of light and fire. The Japanese soldiers had had guns up on the hill and his unit–along with several others–were storming the beach. The Japanese had fired one shot, and those men evaporated in an instant.

    Now, I’m NOT justifying America’s use of atomic bombs during that war, but I do want to point out that, Yes, my grandfather–as well as every American soldier who had stormed the beach–had a gun, but there was still nothing they could against those guns on the hill from where they were at the time.

    To get an idea of what he went through, watch “Saving Private Ryan” (assuming you haven’t seen it already). Although he was in The Pacific, he went through invasions like that–running out of the “murder holes” on the boats–7 times.

    So even though you do stuggle with your desire to defend, like you said, “ours is an infinitely short-sighted and limited perspective.” Even if you could, there would probably still come a time when you faced a situation like the one my grandfather found himself in that day. It was so traumatic for him to see those 2,000 men vanish in fire–and this is just one example of what he had witnessed–that by the time he got to Hiroshima after the atomic bomb had been dropped, the destruction didn’t even phase him.

    (But, my grandfather had an advantage after the war that no other man on the planet had: he was married to my grandmother.)

    But I hope that one perspective you’ll gain from Category 5 is how all of history–even with the questions I have asked–is so far out of our control. The big results are not in your hands or mine, but they suddenly, simply happen. We are here to do what we are here to do–nothing more.

    If it is your role not to bear arms as a Chaplain, then I do hope you will accept that others bear arms, and carry the burden that comes with such a task, because it is their role. And so you must reconcile carrying your burden of not bearing arms as a Chaplian. Honestly, it does sound like quite a temptation, even more so if you should face the heat of battle.

    Parts of a body serves a purpose for the whole unit. Bones make blood to feed the body, and white blood cells fight infection. And yet, the finger may not know the worth of the white blood cells until it gets cut.

    Do the soldiers you minister to accept this regulation, knowing that their lives may one day be at stake and it is against the rules for you to bear arms?

  7. On April 21, 2008 at 2:47 pm Brad Said:

    While I doubt I will actively seek to carry arms (most of my time would be spent at a patrol base, or similarly guarded post), the scenario that illustrates the ludicrousness of the regulation, and where I am most tempted, is the roadside ambush… something I trained for ad nauseum as an MP. It would be ridiculous of me to try to do anything but keep my head down, as putting myself in danger creates one more factor for the unit I am with to worry about.

    However, as is often the case historically, Chaplains recover the wounded, putting themselves in danger. In the case of a roadside ambush, it is the nature of guerilla warfare that the enemy can get through the lines and make for the center of your defensive formation. Long story short, a chaplain could be the only able-bodied soldier between him and wounded soldiers.

    What is my charge as a shepherd of warriors? Is it to defend those soldiers and myself with a weapon? Or is it to allow the enemy to take their lives? It is at this point that I confess, I would most likely take the enemy’s life.

    While ours is a short-sighted and limited perspective, we still have a responsibility to act within the perspective given to us by God (not saying that you would disagree). My first duty as a Chaplain is the spiritual care of soldiers. On the most basic level, I cannot very well care for them if they have been killed. That is the perspective the Lord has called me to, and I must act within it. While I have vowed to act within the regulations of my country as it pertains to Chaplains, my conscience and my understanding of God leads me to embrace this exception.

    Most soldiers are aware of that regulation, and I have yet to encounter one that would not want me to defend them with my life as they would my own. Chaplain Assistants (many of which are Christian), who’s job is basically that of an admin assistant fused with body-guard, have actually thanked me for making that exception. They take it as a mark of honor and respect. Truly, part of why I miss being an MP is sharing in the sufferings of soldiers (2Cor 2:1-10). I still do as a Chaplain, but it is challenging me to do so in different ways… It was just more familiar and easier to understand as an MP. Does that make sense?

    In Re: to “possibilities, not certainties,” you are quite welcome. It’s easy to throw stones, quite another to seek the good and give the benefit of the doubt. I generally try to ask for clarification (even if it seems clear) to give the opportunity. Your headings were very helpful, though.

  8. On April 21, 2008 at 2:53 pm Michelle Said:

    Y’all’s discussion caused me to remember my former boss, when I worked for Chaplaincy Ministries in my former denomination. CH COL Curt Bowers USA, retired, completed two tours in VietNam. He was allowed to carry arms into battle and Time magazine did an expose’ on him, “The Pistol Packing Padre.” I found this link to his book telling of his time in combat…

    http://search.barnesandnoble.com/booksearch/isbninquiry.asp?r=1&ean=9780834112209

    Food for thought…

  9. On April 21, 2008 at 2:57 pm TheNorEaster Said:

    Brad:

    Makes sense. I certainly hope you’re never in that situation, though.

    I do have a question, though: If it is against the rules for a Chaplain to bear arms, even in a situation that demonstrates the “ludicrous of the regulation”, what would happen to a Chaplain who does bear arms even in defense?

  10. On April 21, 2008 at 3:03 pm TheNorEaster Said:

    Michelle:

    I’d chew on that food for thought, but my head is still spinning from writing Category 5.

    I’ll keep the food in the fridge and heat it up later.

    But I have to admit–it is easier to discuss these things than it is to discuss the actual post.

  11. On April 22, 2008 at 3:13 pm mandythompson Said:

    oh gosh. i came. i read.
    i’m glad you warned that it was graphic. even closing my eyes - its still there…..

    thank you for sharing. whew………..

  12. On April 22, 2008 at 3:18 pm TheNorEaster Said:

    It’s still with me, too. The world just seems a little…different since I wrote that. I can’t explain it. It just is.

  13. On April 22, 2008 at 3:30 pm mandythompson Said:

    how could you escape the emotion after having regurgitated that? really… for me, songwriting is cathartic - its a release of emotions. but composing essays/etc, i usually INTERNALIZE what i’m writing as i write - it crawls inside my heart. it becomes a part of me.

    songs come out of me, but informative things like “essays” and “reports” - they get inside me. change me. mold me. move me.

    so. yes. i understand… its a different experience altogether.

  14. On April 22, 2008 at 3:31 pm mandythompson Said:

    Forgive me for not using proper grammatical notations on your blog. I should know better.
    I’m sure you’re fighting heart palpitations now. I’m sorry!!!
    :)

  15. On April 22, 2008 at 3:38 pm TheNorEaster Said:

    Mandy:

    I internalize what I’m writing while I am writing it. Once that final draft is done–and believe me, there were several drafts of this Essay–and I publish, it’s not internalized anymore. And that gives me the chance to step back and read what I have written, which I’ve done several times in this case.

    Sometimes, I’m just writing in my head and…it comes. The words come. And I can’t get them out fast enough. That happened with this one many, many times. I had napkins and scraps of paper and old receipts that I would scribble on just to get it out…

    …And I’m glad it’s finally out.

  16. On April 22, 2008 at 3:39 pm TheNorEaster Said:

    By the way, I know how your fingers work, Mandy. No heart palpitations here! ;)

  17. On April 22, 2008 at 3:47 pm Michelle Said:

    NorEaster, I’m still processing…

    Your words were profound and difficult, challenging and heart-wrenching. They disturbed me…and riled me…and grieved me…and gave me hope. How is that possible?

    Thank you for allowing yourself to be used…

  18. On April 22, 2008 at 3:49 pm mandythompson Said:

    whew.
    thank you.
    i guess i should’ve considered the fact that you tolerate my typing over in my neck of the woods.

  19. On April 22, 2008 at 5:41 pm TheNorEaster Said:

    Michelle:

    You’re not the only one who is still processing. There are times when I read it and…I actually get scared. In a good way, if that even makes any sense.

    It’s a storm of historical facts seen through the eyes of one who has faith in the sunrise…

  20. On April 22, 2008 at 5:42 pm TheNorEaster Said:

    Mandy:

    You know…One of these days, your fingers have got to find that SHIFT key. :lol:

  21. On April 22, 2008 at 5:51 pm Michelle Said:

    I’m so glad God created optimists. ;)

  22. On April 22, 2008 at 5:57 pm TheNorEaster Said:

    You and me both!!! :lol:

  23. On April 22, 2008 at 6:06 pm mandythompson Said:

    i know the shift key all too well, but i’m lazy. that’s all…

    but, yes, yay for sunrises.
    :)

  24. On April 22, 2008 at 6:21 pm TheNorEaster Said:

    Your pinkies are just wimps, Mandy! :lol:

    And thanks for stopping by…rambling about pinkies and what not so forth et cetera helps keep it light! :)

  25. On April 23, 2008 at 11:14 pm mandythompson Said:

    you know i don’t have a serious bone in my body. and, well, if i do, its probably located in my lazy pinky!!!

  26. On April 23, 2008 at 11:15 pm mandythompson Said:

    oops. fast conviction on that!

    actually. that isn’t true at all. i’m more serious than i’d like to be. but y’all don’t see that so much. in the blogworld, its easier to just type out the joke, laugh, and keep going.

    honestly, i’m real serious.

  27. On April 23, 2008 at 11:30 pm TheNorEaster Said:

    In that case, you’d definitely beat me at pinky wrestling. :lol:

  28. On April 23, 2008 at 11:37 pm TheNorEaster Said:

    Funny. In the blogsphere, I probably come across as SERIOUS. But in the biosphere, I’ve a mad sense of humor. Why, just last night I got together with two of my good friends and we watched The Red Sox clobber The Angels and laughed hysterically over…Well, nothing really. But it was FUN! ;)

    And with your posting as much as you do, Mandy, it’s probably good that you are so light and funny. Otherwise, well, nobody would visit a SERIOUS blog all the time, which is one reason why I only publish one a week. Usually. I know people can’t always handle some of the things I discuss on a daily basis so I just try to give them something new to think about once a week. As you can imagine, it takes a lot of effort. But, honestly, after writing Category 5, I think I’m going to lighten up a little bit myself. At least for the next few weeks. We’ll see.

    Take care. ;)

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