[Author's note: This probably isn't going to make any sense.]
- After a recent conversation, I remembered that I had said, once or twice at least — though I certainly had thought about it a lot more, — but I had said I wanted to know The Most High more than I did at that time, but was afraid to request that of Him. I realized this morning, He didn’t wait for me to ask.
The validity of my fears have been realized. And I know, now, that I have been reading the next chapter of the words He has written for my life for quite some time now. I cannot see the sunrise through the storm, but, I will say — Everything else? That was practice. And I now fear God in ways my own imagination cannot possibly comprehend.
It’s never easy, when God decides to reveal more of Himself to us … but what a blessing it is – even in suffering – when we can fully trust in His promise of security and deliverance because we have known His name.
( Psalm 91:14-16) Let us know how we can pray for you …….
J.D. & MIchelle
To say that I am in over my head would be an epic understatement of cosmically biblical proportions. Least, it feels that way. When I think about it.
As to prayers — I need to know what to say. And what to do. Because, this time, I honestly do not know…
“And I now fear God in ways my own imagination cannot possibly comprehend.”
Isn’t experiencing God suppose to remove fear not cause it?
Well, Yes and No. Try to think of it this way — imagine actually being in an astronaut suit somewhere in our solar system. There are great wonders to behold, but the vastness of actually being out there and seeing it with your own eyes would scare you. And yet, you’d only be seeing a fraction of our solar system in a even bigger galaxy and a very big universe.
Praying for you now, Nor, as He reveals Himself to you. Asking Him to uphold you as well and carry you when it is just too much.
Thank you, Dear One, because it is often far, far too much…
I think, many times, we imagine we’ve understood why we’ve lived the life we’ve lived…good or bad. We try to make sense of things. Then, life hits us from a whole other angle and we need to reassess…
God is sovereign and His plan is for all those He has called to be presented before Him, without spot or blemish, blameless and complete…wholly sanctified.
I believe all that you’ve endured, up to this point in life, has uniquely qualified you for becoming an encourager to others who struggle (me…and many more). Your story has been one of the most difficult I have ever heard, and yet, you still desire to know Him more.
I believe Paul’s words are true for you:
It has been granted to you not only to believe in Christ but also to suffer for him…
You will know Him more…even if you don’t make a formal request. He knows the desires of your heart.
I love you, Professor.
It is a completely new angle that I am dealing with right now, one I can scarcely articulate — although Leonard Nimoy has said it best, “Only Nixon could go to China.”
Thank you, Michelle, for being such an instrumental part of my journey thus far — and, I hope, much further; honestly, I never would have made it this far without you, Ethel.
Holy fear or reverence is not a bad place to be, but definitely an awakening to the All Powerful, still loving, and the reality of how very small we are in the scope of things…all glory belongs to him, and all past issues were allowed to bring us to a day where they will also show His Glory….
Yeah, the interval just gets on my nerves sometimes. Well, a lot of the times…